soooo i don't know where to start.
i really wish i could say that i understand, that it's okay that you were in no condition to do so, i know that's the right thing to say, after all, it's my own fault i didn't turn up today.
but the thought that i MAY get kicked out because you didn't bother angers me.
because i know that if we had switched places, no matter how upset i might have been, i would have still made sure everything was counted correctly, because that's a responsibility i took on when i agreed to help you. i wouldn't want you to fail a paper just because i didn't check it for you.
but anyway it's over, if there was indeed a calculation error i will never know about it, maybe that's god's intention.
i'm sorry i'm not a saint, i can't take the high road and understand how you feel, i'm sorry i'm so pissed, but i just am.
it IS my fault i didn't go today, i'm just wondering why you didn't at least try.
because i KNOW i would have, if i had been in your position and you in mine.
the dubious honour of being the first to get expelled from school goes to me. my life will progress very slowly, i will spend the next 3 years in poly before spending another 4 years in university. i will (hopefully) graduate from university at the age of 25.
i guess i brought this upon myself. i don't really mind taking this route, i'm just a bit ashamed that i will be 2 years older than everyone else. but it's okay, everyone in poly and uni are of varying ages. it's not as bad as being a year older than everyone else in JC.
the uncertainty scares me. but it makes me feel alive. i haven't felt this scared, this sick to the stomach in a long time. god knows i will appreciate the anonymity of being among thousands of poly students. i'm sick of people knowing me and hating me and bitching about me when really, i've never even spoken to them. yes, it is foolish of me to think that this will stop in poly. it is, afterall, basic human nature.
it is foolish of me to think so many other things,
CAN a girl dream?
is there room for that anymore in our overtly pragmatic society?
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sibyl92- October 26th, 21:53
i did really badly for GP.
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- sibyl92
- October 19th, 21:46
i wish i could forget.
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- sibyl92
- October 18th, 23:29
happy
okay so i opened the "friends page" thing on Livejournal,
and this sounds too weird to be true,
but basically:
1st post by *** : )))))))))))))))):
2nd post by AAA: life sucks
3rd post by BBBB: ):
4th post: *******pathetic
5th post: (emo song lyrics about life sucking ttm)
i've never seen so many sad faces on my friends page before.
CHEER UPPPPPPPPP MY FRIENDS!
i had a nice day today (:
cheryl and i revisited our tween-hood!
crazy sneaky steps into clubs that weren't even open yet, laughing our hearts out as we hopped on the hopping machines in the arcade, racing cars in the arcade, taking neoprints (ikr, wtf, ffs! lol), eating mini burgers and nearly forgetting to pay for them before leaving the place, taking photos with doraemon, chatting about nothing in particular.
i loved every minute of it <3
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- sibyl92
- October 15th, 3:21
omfg words cannot decribe how infatuated i am right now.
i'm so infatuated, i'm fking SPEECHLESS.
lol NOPE i'm not in love with a guy HAHA
it's a little korean SEXY BEASTLY MAN BAND called MBLAQ OH MY FKING GOD.
they MADE my week. seriously, it's like, with kpop, all is right in this world again!
they saved me from EMOING the night away yay more power to them!
i'm walking on synthetic sunshine MADE OF NYLON!!!
LIVE LONG AND PROSPER Y'ALL! (:
- i don’t like anybody right now, i’m just writing this for fun
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- sibyl92
- September 30th, 23:04
i will never know what to get you for valentine’s day, but i’ll always expect something great from you.
i won’t always remember to care about you if i’m busy, but i’ll expect you to, no matter what the circumstances are.
i will never be sure of what i’m doing, but i’ll expect you to be confident.
i will never know what to say (i’ll probably end up saying things that will piss you off), but i’ll expect you to never say anything annoying.
i may not remember your birthday, but i’ll expect you to remember how i like to eat my fries.
i will be very demanding, but i will not tolerate you being demanding.
i’ll never know what to get you for valentine’s day, but i’ll try my fucking hardest to think of something i hope you’ll like.
i won’t always remember to care about you if i’m busy, but once i do, i won’t stop.
i’ll never be sure of what i’m doing, but you can be sure that i’ll risk looking stupid to try to make you happy.
i will never know what to say, but i’ll mean everything i do say.
i may not remember your birthday - who am i kidding, i definitely will.
i will be very demanding - i have no excuse for that. it’s pure selfishness. i can’t even think of anything to say that will make it sound better like i did with the above examples.
but i’ll give you all of my heart.
how about that?
